Hey everyone,
What I'm really trying to do is to start a new blog on Islam, me being a Muslim and all. But I KEEP obsessing over what name I should give it. (The URL and the name) It's so DISTRESSFUL! I make it, then I delete it.
So maybe what I do is I'll start posting certain verses of the Quran over here instead. That's if, of course, I can get over the fear.
As I said earlier, anything I get excited over becomes an obsession.
I sincerely tried to overcome the OCD, so that future fears can be neutral instead of fearsome, but I keep falling right back into the trap.
What happens sometimes is I'll have a certain fear that sticks with me for SO LONG. As long as probably a MONTH or more! What the hell?! The good side to this is that the small fears and obsessions go away, because I am so fixated on the bigger one. Usually, I have to do this obsession on a certain time and day. I know, it's ridiculous. But it's OCD.
My current big obsession is to ask my mom to say a phrase on saturday at a certain time. The phrase has to do something with the bump on my finger caused by trichotilomania. However, despite the big obsession, I still have the small ones. Argh!
Anyways, that's all I have to say currently, so take care.
With love,
Tareq
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